Hi. It's been quite a while since I've posted. Mostly because so many things have happened in the last few months and I guess I've just been overwhelmed and just haven't known what to say.
In Feb. of this year I took a huge leap of faith and had the bypass surgery done that I was told last April I needed because of the congenital issues they found. I had one group of doctors telling me I needed bypass surgery and another saying I probably didn't but I continued to have chest pressure which just wore on me daily. The only alternative they offered me to doing nothing was surgery. It was almost an impossible decision but after several months of prayer I decided to go through with it after locating a doctor who performs "minimally invasive" heart surgery through one incision under the left breast and two holes between the ribs. I traveled to Pennsylvania with my husband and sons, my father and mother in law and sister in law followed for support.
I won't go into all the details in this post but I will say that YHWH is merciful and has been very kind and patient with me. I have a ways to go as far as recovery and still have a couple of things I hope YHWH will resolve for me but I am happy to see the sun everyday and giving thanks to YHWH for all He has helped us through. It really seems to have been a long road. I have had much time to inspect my spiritual heart along this journey and I am amazed to find things I didn't know about myself but I am thankful that Abba has brought them to my attention and I pray He will give me ample opportunity to show my thankfulness for this mercy. It is true mercy that He shows in allowing us to see ourselves in His light because it gives us hope that He will help us change or turn/ teshuvah toward Him. I give Him thanks for that.
I have so many things to say but my thoughts are not organized. I have been taken out of my norm and that has been rough. My grand daughters are going to a daycare since my surgery, that is so sad for me. I miss seeing them everyday. I'm having to learn patience on many levels, waiting on Abba, waiting for recovery, waiting to see what I will be like 6 months or even a year from now. But, as it says in the header of this blog, "today is the first day of the rest of your life" so we live in today. Today, YHWH is good. Tomorrow, YHWH is good. So, I'm learning to rest in that because really that's all there ever was anyway:)
Thank you sweet family for loving me through this. I know it's been as hard for you all as it's been for me. I love you for being there for me, totally. It's just another evidence of Abba's kind mercies to me and I thank Him, greatly for you all.
Much more to say on the matter. I'll try to collect the thoughts surrounding this journey.